Gained something in my life today and it's about:
Moving on...
Letting go...
An easy concept, but takes damn lots of effort to actually make it happen!
I've had times where I need to move on with a bad experience or tragedy. Moving on in a relationship seems to be something that I've yet to tackle and understand fully. I don't mean in relationships that I had... but more like girls that I like or liked but I've never gave up on.
Spoke to an old friend of mine... someone that I've known for many years. I know she has no idea the feeling i have for her and that she does not have any interest in me as well. However, inside me today a force kept pushing me that I needed to tell her something and that it is something I'm supposed to do too.
She's someone that I've liked and I know I've moved on... or so I thought. She's in a different country and she has been in many relationships b4... but somehow the feeling of envy and regret still lingers around me when she's with someone and the *tingly* feeling whenever I see her.
So I told her everything on the spot... and as I chatted with her, 1 thing came into realisation... is that I always had the fear of rejection! It was the root of all evil for my inability to move on in relationships and letting it go! This task was meant to be done ages ago but just didn't had the guts to do so. After the conversation... I felt a new breadth of fresh air around me. This event had given me lots of answers I've been questioning myself throughout the years.
My advise to the kids out there? Don't be afraid of rejection! In relationship or in making decisions... if you're accepted or your idea is well conceived then congrats, but if you've been rejected, heads up! Opportunities will still be there as long as you take the effort to achieve it... WILL POWER is the key! Remember:
"What doesn't kill us... makes us stronger! -Friedrich Nietzsche-"
By the way here's someone I've always wanted to confess to the world... been admiring this person for a damn long time... gosh I can't stand it no more.
CECH FABREGAS!! Come to UNITED bah!! You're one my of greatest inspiration...
Till then! =)
